I felt the Lord speaking very personally to my heart when I first read this passage this summer.
He alone knew the fear and struggles I would face in the weeks ahead. He alone knew the great healing that was coming.
Here is how I penned it in my journal in August:
I created you, Christine. I formed you into who you are. I redeemed you from sin and shame. Christine, you are Mine! I love you and will not be okay with you straying from Me.
You have mistaken my love flowing through others as independent of Me. You've mistaken the physical world as greater than what you can't see, feel, or hold. I am enough. If it wasn't so I would have told you. Some of what you feel is just being crucified with Christ. Be humble-life is about others. Be grateful-count your blessings and cherish the moments.
I have called thee to be a single mom. I have called thee to be a country mom of a handyman house. I have called thee to homeschool the boys. I have called thee....When you go through deep water, I will be with thee. I am the LORD thy God.
You are precious in My sight. You are honorable. I love thee. Fear not, I am with thee. Everyone that is called of mine name, I have created for My glory. I formed you. I made you. I am your potter. Be my witness. And my chosen servant that you may know and understand I am He.
There is no other god before me or after me. There is no other savior or hero coming to rescue you. I deliver-let Me work. I am your King. I will make a way. Remember not the former things. I am going to do a new thing. I will make a way in the wilderness. I will make rivers in the desert. Where you are thirsty the most, I will quench it.
You are one of my people. You are chosen, my chosen. You were formed for Me, to show forth My praise. I know you haven't been faithful, thankful, or joyful. I will blot out your sins and remember them no more. Put Me in remembrance of you mind. Meditate...think on Me. Because I am thinking of you.